The Love That Could Have Been
I went on a date with one guy and I’m glad I did.
This was over a year ago, but the feeling rings true to this day.
I saw his broad shoulders, and felt myself melting — -wanting the safety within his arms. I know it’s cliche, but it’s also a valid feeling. Having safe masculinity is a precious gift.
I want to be held by someone strong, who could tell me everything is okay.
I’ve gone through tough challenges in life — tough is an understatement.
Sometimes I think, if this guy were replaced by a better father in my life — who cared about my feelings and safety — I would have melted the same way.
Maybe I’m someone who is too emotional at times, and soft by nature. Sometimes I feel like leaving it unprocessed like how society tells me to, would be a better idea. After all, who wants to actually listen right?
He had ghosted me. This Tamilian guy took my number at the end of our date and then never texted me.
He was also the most physically attractive guy I had met until that point — 5"10, brown and dark as it can get, with beautiful eyes, and he had limited to no social media. Just my type!
